a little journey north……

a little journey north......

a little journey north......

a little journey north......

a little journey north......

a little journey north......

a little journey north......

As I type this I am sipping my second cup of coffee and warming myself in front of the fire.

Morning chores were finished over an hour ago. In zero degree weather. Those poor chickens. Especially the one going through a late molt. I've been giving them extra corn and sunflower seeds as a treat but they still look at me as if I am to blame for the frigid temperatures. They don't even try to go out of their coop to forage. They just stare at me, feathers fluffed as much as they can, huddled together in the sunniest corner (with feathery furrowed brows, I swear!) and watch as I break the ice out of their bucket and fill it with fresh water. After tending to the feathered and furry creatures, I wander to the bees. A layer of frost covers their upper entrance and I wonder if this is a good or bad thing. I scrape the frost aside with a stick. No bees appear. I pull my hood off and press my ear to the outside of the hive, tap gently with an open hand and hear the reassuring hum inside. Good girls, I whisper.

We went to NY this weekend. Joe had a job interview in Massena. It's so far north it's almost Canada. He applied for the job several weeks ago and we've trying (and failing) at not obsessing over the possibility for the last two months.

The interview went very well. In fact, they offered him the job. A very good job. And a step two starting position. It's like an immediate raise, they never do this. But the schedule was really difficult. A lot of on call time, on the road time, and a ton of hours six months out of the year. Even though it would mean finally settling down…… it wouldn't mean a quality of life change for the better. He politely declined yesterday.

The drive was beautiful. Just him and I, and knitting needles. The night before was a combination of snow and freezing rain and everything was glossy and frozen and white and looked like something out of a picture book. Talk, knit, talk, knit. I snapped a few pictures along the way. An amazing old water mill of some sort…. the sun setting over the icy landscape….. the moon! Winter moons are magic things. I thought I might be disappointed that it didn't work out….. but I actually felt relieved. I don't feel ready to be uprooted again….. and it wasn't quite where I want us to land. Between the knitting and the talking I said a millionth little prayer to the universe, to the tiny broken down farmhouse with good bones waiting for us…. I'm sure it will find us when the time is right.

xo,

s

psssttttt…. also, I finally joined instagram. are you there too? why didn't you guys tell me it was so fun?? 

 

 

34 thoughts on “a little journey north……

  1. The perfect job is out there, sometimes it just takes time, but I have faith that it will find your family soon and all will be well.
    We aren’t as cold as you, but it’s cold for here and my girls are not really happy about it either, but I am. Now if I could just get some snow!
    PS- I made your kale, tomato and bean soup yesterday, it has become a favorite around here, thank you.

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  2. I feel the same way sending messages to that perfect farm house just waiting for my family. The one with 6 acres and a creek running through. Hilly land and some forest shade for the sheep to graze with plenty of flat sunny space to grow things. I can see it, I just can’t find it…
    Sorry to hear about the icy weather, hope it warms up for you soon!

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  3. Sometimes it’s important to know when to say no. That’s one major reason we left france. The workload would not work for our family. Yes Instagram is so fun! πŸ™‚

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  4. Just a warm up! You’ll be more ready the next offer that comes along. Once you open the door, it’s hard to close it. BUT, I’m so relieved he declined, because I’m selfish. Love you ❀️❀️❀️

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  5. ~lovely… animals are doing fine… found the outside cats and are now shell shocked at being in the basement…the house is full of small children giggling away… they “helped” me take down the tree today…we gathered some needles to make some sachet pillows. Have you guys looked in western ma? Last year, not knowing what was to be in my private idaho,… i went to the Great Barrington area just poking around..seeing my options… Many ,to die for, affordable super cool farmhouses with acres of land nestled along a lake or mountainside…the area borders Ny, Conn, Ma and it is not to far from main stream money, The area is full of art ,culture, music, organic and alternative lifstyles…like amazing! Just a thought..
    XOXO Heidi

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  6. That orange in your first picture – too die for! I love it. And all the pictures of your trip. I love the moon year round, but there is something so magical about it in the winter. I always feel like the Tomten when I’m wandering around at night admiring it. Not long ago, we too were looking at a job up north in New York, but alas, it didn’t seem like a good fit either. So we press on. Sending good vibes your way. And Instagram is SO much fun!!

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  7. Oh, reading this made my tummy turn for some reason. I guess it is just familiar territory.
    I totally agree about the moon! Yes. Winter moons keep me up too late.
    I am SO happy you are in IG. It is so very fun over there!

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  8. Good morning! Happy New Year!
    My six year old little girl has been taking guitar lessons at school this year and loves it. She has stuck with it and we decided to invest in a decent guitar for her for Christmas. I was hoping you could recommend some great guitar-based music to introduce to her? Preferably in a variety of styles and moods; not too mainstream maybe?
    I introduced her to Jewel and some of her older music. We looked up some of her videos on YouTube and she loved them. The girl playing the guitar, the highly artistic nature of the visuals, and the folksy tone. (I should mention that this girl of mine is quite artistic and quirky; she is part of an elementary art magnet school and where that probably isn’t all that big a deal for many, it is such a facet of her little self.). But Jewel is about as mainstream as I want to get. She’ll be immersed in that world soon enough. But I’m looking for music that is more on the fringes. I love stuff like Gorgol Bordello (gypsy punk!) and The Tossers (Irish punk but edgier than say Flogging Molly or Dropkick Murphys) – it’s fun and has a distinct identity. But it’s just too much for her age – she is nothing but sweet. We also like jazz, and folk, and classical. Not just rock and punk so a diverse variety would be very welcome.
    Between, you, your husband, and your older girl, I figure you could probably recommend quite the inspiring playlist for an unconventional guitar-loving artsy sweetheart.
    (And btw – congrats that your husband got the job, even though it turned out to be not quite what you guys wanted. I think it’s a sign that when the right job comes up, he’s got what it takes to go for it and get it. No need to settle for anything less!!! And such great things you have going on in your world now during the meanwhile.)

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  9. Congrats indeed! I’m a little sad, I selfishly would have loved you posted near Massena, since I’m from Cornwall and we would drive through there a few times a year. But, the job, oh it can make such a difference! It will come in due time, but what a boost this must be!

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  10. It looks lovely, but way northern New York would be brrrrrr cold! Good luck finding the perfect job and place…it’s not easy to do. And I just joined instagram, too! It IS fun!

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  11. sometimes those decisions are so hard. knowing what you want and holding it close is certainly the way to find your dreams coming true. one step closer.
    and your poor girls… do you have electricity close by their coop? when it gets cold here we would put a heat lamp on for our ladies. i realize you may not even have the option. we were lucky to have power IN our coop (although it did have other “problems”) but just a thought πŸ™‚

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  12. It’s good to be able to do the thing that is right for you. We have made job decisions over the past 5+ years that are better for us. It’s not always easy and a lot of times it’s hard. But you know in your gut that it’s the best thing.
    I really like that hat! You would have needed it in that job. :o)

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  13. So glad you loved the soup! It’s such a good winter meal….
    And yes! We want snow too. More rain….. so much rain this winter…..
    Thank you for the sweet words….. I just know it will fall together when the time is right πŸ™‚

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  14. That is so it. I am so grateful to have such a hard working husband who provides for us….. and even more grateful that he looked at that opportunity and felt that his time was far more precious than a hefty salary πŸ˜‰

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  15. That is LunaGrey’s Spice color-way! I LOVE it! It’s leftover from a sweater I knit the little guy….
    I thought of the Tomten too when snapping those photos….. so sweet you said that πŸ˜‰ Sending you happy vibes as well…. xo~

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  16. Isn’t the hectic schedule just the reason you recently moved? And they told him after he declined they would hire a third inspector if he reconsidered. While the idea was lovely, it takes months to put that type of thing in motion and we could have easily ended up moving only to find out they would not be able to add a third position to lighten the load. It was a good journey though…… in many ways…. it always is when you take time to notice it all…. xo~

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  17. I had dreamed of you driving through with the boys….. is this the summer we will finally meet? Sophie still tells me stories of walking the farm with you! And Noah! Soon, soon…… xo~

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  18. I hope so. It’s been a dream y-e-a-r-s in the making…… one day…..
    And the girls have no light. Their coop is well insulated and we keep straw down in the coop so the ground is not too cold. They don’t lay in the winter….. and I’m ok with that. And they get spoiled with organic cracked corn and sunflower seeds!

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  19. It’s so good that 20+ years translates to a job in the “civilian world”, you know?!?! It’s always been something we’ve wondered about.
    Congrats to your new little guitar player!! Watching a little musician unfold is as exciting as watching new little reader!
    Guitar music that comes to mind……
    Be Good Tanyas (Littlest Birds song is my favorite!), Ingrid Michaelson (might be uke more than guitar – but Jade says they are super easy to play & convert to guitar, and she’s such a sweetie!!), Joni Mitchell, Edie Brickell, Paul Simon, Jack Johnson, Indigo Girls, Old Crow Medicine Show (content might be iffy on some songs, but they are fun to listen to!), Jerry Garcia & David Grisman have a great folk album (albums Not Just For Kids and Shady Grove)! I’m sure you’re familiar with Elizabeth Mitchell? We love her too. Folk music is our favorite for little ones…… have fun!!

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  20. You’re wise to consider work/life balance. I’m sure work will be there for you before too long. Love the colour of your wool. And I’m envying your snow, we’re sweltering through a very hot summer here.

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