And yesterday my blue mood must have been showing because the whole day just seemed sour. I swear the kids can sense that stuff and reflect your true inner mood…… so as I mulled things over in my head and sent all my littles off to partake in quiet activities while I baked. Baking resets my soul….. and these cookies are the best. (I am nibbling one with my coffee right now.)
I began to see a light at the end of my funk tunnel….
I don't know if it is the inheritance of my dad's type A personality (the two of us are of the same mold) or all those years spent in compulsory schooling….. but I have finally come to realize I am very goal oriented. And all the new aged reading and crunchy living and homemade granola eating I do is not going to change that. I don't go with the flow, I AM the flow. I work very hard to enjoy the process, but that is not my natural path! So, in my post holiday funkness I realized my goals are all fuzzy right now….
Let me whine explain a bit….. we had been saving money for YEARS to buy a camp/house. I am just getting my feet wet in the waters of teenage parenting and realizing how fleeting life with kids really is…. can someone push the rewind button, please? We just bought our first house. We aren't buying a camp anytime soon. I am still feeling blah about trading our 3 acre rental for a plot in suburbia…. call me an ungrateful brat… I know we just bought our first house….. but darn it I miss that old place! I miss those silly chickens! (just look at the last picture in this post!) So after reading Tonya's post this morning, I realized I needed a goal, a challenge, a something to pull me out of this……
So what's it going to be?? (are you still reading?)
First, to save every extra penny for our future homestead. Maybe it will come in 3 years, maybe 6. But I'll be prepared with enough cash to buy an alpaca and a dozen chickens when the time does come. Oh yeah, and honey, you can buy your tractor.
Second, to get the old sewing machine out and let it live where my girls can use it. With a pile of fabric for them to sew. I will not get mad when they break 4 needles in a row and leave fabric scraps and thread bits all over the floor. I will just let them be.
Third, I will let/encourage my kids to make at least one evening meal a week. I will not offer my cooking expertise, in fact I will sit in the next room with my glass of wine and read or knit while they do the cooking!
Fourth, I was so inspired by Nicola's one year of buying nothing new that I almost considered doing the same. But upon looking at what I buy, I realize a greater task would be to only buy what I need right now. This will of course help the first goal of saving money. Less of those yarn and fabric purchases just because they're pretty. I really want to consider the use and necessity of each item before it comes into my house. This will be good for our budget, our earth and our closet space!
I will go outside more. Spend less time on the computer. Sew. Knit. Garden. Live.
And when I feel disconnected or like I am treading water I can come back to this January 7th post and push my reset button.
If you made it all the way through the ramblings of my mind, thank you. I wish I could share one of Heather's cookies with you, did you know they taste heavenly with pumpkin seeds in them?